I did absolutely no adulting today. I woke up and my body said "No, no, honey NOT today." Apparently, I wasn't about that 'momlife' either because I didn't do anything with the kids. They pretty much entertained themselves. I mean, of course, I fed them and made them wash their faces and brush their teeth but Desi pretty much went on an electronic binge today. He shuffled from playing some Lego Marvel game on the Playstation to watching hours of Kids Youtube. He is literally still watching as I type this and he should seriously be in bed right now. I am just too tired to put the energy into making him get up to get ready for bed. I will get to that point in about 20 minutes though....I just want to milk this rebellious state of mind a little longer. And where is my baby Omari? Oh, he is just passed out on my lap. Lol! I didn't even have to tell him to go to sleep. He romped around and crashed a few cars and ate an extreme amount of snacks and pizza so he wore himself out.
I usually cook a wholesome meal on Sundays but my adult self said " nah girl, not happening." So my wonderful and understanding husband told me not to worry and ordered some pizza! Ok, yes I felt I tinge of guilt for my laziness but this is not the norm for me and, hey, everyone ate so...what? Normally I am ripping and running around this house making sure things are clean and everyone is alright. I convinced myself that I deserved this today. I caught up on all of my shows and did not worry about cleaning this and that and just sat peacefully in my PJs. I sat on my tail ALL day...in the same spot. If I get up now, I will surely see a lovely picture of my booty in my couch. Ha!!
Tomorrow is a new day though and I will be back on my adulting grind. I just needed a slight break. I needed a chance to turn my brain off for a few. I truly see the need to do that sometimes. Just say no! I ain't doing it! Imma sit my tail down and do absolutely nothing at all and I WILL NOT feel bad for doing it. This does not make me a bad mommy and I am certainly not a bad wife. I holds it down! Today, I just needed to sit down. Otherwise, what will I have to offer if I am burned out? No to adulting (on occasion okay? Don't abuse the privilege). No regrets. Point blank and the period. Boop!
Kudos to you mom for speaking the truth! A lot of times we have that inner voice criticizing us for not being a superhero mom that can go 24/7 with no breaks but she doesn't exist. You holds it down like you said but we all need a break. You're the real hero for having the courage to admit your kid binge-watched You Tube. Girl we have a few days like that when we had the flu in my house.
ReplyDeleteBTW, love your blog!!!
Thank you for your encouraging words! Yes, as much as I would like to go 24/7, it's impossible. This year has been the year of self care for me. I have been a friend to me and in turn it has benefited my family because mommy is happy. Lol!
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