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I am sick and do not know why. I have been dealing with some serious symptoms. I have always dealt with extreme fatigue but in the past 2 years it has become nearly debilitating. I find it hard to do simple things like grocery shopping or doing chores around the house or walking up the steps or putting my clothes on. I experience extreme fatigue with these activities and it usually takes me a day or two to recoup. I have dizziness, and heart palpitations. I have recently experienced chest pain. It wasn't until I started having chest pains during sex when I decided it was time to take a visit to the doctor. My doctor advised that this could be something related to my heart. Since visiting the doctor, I have had blood tests that show I am healthy and I recently did a stress test and 2D Echo that showed my heart was fine. I immediately felt like a fool and quickly reasoned that this was possibly in my head. I have an angiogram scheduled for tomorrow but I don't think anything will show up. That would leave me back at square one. I have always been the type to suffer in silence. So when I say square one, that means going back to ignoring my symptoms and pushing through. I know I shouldn't but that seems to be the most comfortable position for me. However, my husband is very aware of my symptoms since I have vocalized it to him and he has been my superman because he will not let me go that route so I am thankful for the push.

It is frustrating not knowing what is plaguing me at this time. I have read up on a few possibilities only to become more and more confused. Fatigue has been present with me since my 20s. I remember walking through the mall and getting winded. My body would feel so heavy. I could barely walk. I remember working out to a DVD and experiencing heart palpitations and almost passing out. Now if I am out running errands for a few hours I am down for the count for the next 2 days. It could be my heart be so far the tests do not show it. I am currently taking Metoprolol every day and that has slowed down my palpitations. I had to take some Nitroglycerin pills when I was feeling pressure in my chest and dizziness and it worked. So if the heart medication is working wouldn't have something to do with my heart?? I guess I will find out at tomorrow's angiogram appointment. I hope. What else could it be?

As mentioned earlier,  I am a silent sufferer so writing about this publically is scary to me but I need to know if anyone else in my circle and outside is going through the same thing. I would like to hear from you.

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