I took a break from writing. It was a break that I didn't know I needed but it kind of happened naturally. A few months ago, my son Desmond lovingly counseled me on how much attention I have been paying to my phone. He was right. My head was down too often enough for him to notice. I can't let that happen again. These moments with my babies are too precious and fragile. I definitely need to HANDLE WITH CARE.
So with that being said, I am back but I am going to exercise a little more balance. I love writing but sometimes I get too needy. I turn into the clingy girlfriend with it. I also started getting obsessed with gaining followers and popularity with the media spectators. I wanted people to really enjoy my blog as much as I do (and I wanted to make a little money too. Shoot). I can't worry myself about it. That will take a backseat. My children come first. I am going to be more cautious this time around. I will find a balance. I have been humbled.
I truly appreciate parenthood for that simple fact....it humbles you. My kids tell me about myself. It could be in a vocal sense but I often get told off through their actions. They are a reflection of me (and daddy of course but whose writing here? 😉) and how I present myself to them. I may not get things right all the time but they didn't ask to be here so I need to consistently show them that I truly care that they are here and a part of my life. I AM HUMBLED AND THEY ARE NOT STUMBLED. It is important for them to see me make mistakes and admit to my wrongs. If I never admit to a mistake, I am stunting their growth. I REFUSE.
The truth is in your babies. Take heed. BE HUMBLE. SIT DOWN.
The other day, Desi, my husband and myself were at my cousin's house visiting her and her two beautiful baby girls. Of course, all of the toys there were girly toys. Okay, so you get where I'm going with this right? The grown ups were talking in the kitchen when, all of a sudden, Desi runs in holding a Dora doll and a barbie doll. My poor husband was visibly horrified by the scene. I gave him that reassuring look and when Desi left, I said, "honey, it's okay. He doesn't know any different." Chris shook his head and disapprovingly said, "No, honey, those are dolls. He's playing with dolls." My cousin and I just laughed. At Desi's age, a little boy playing with "girlie" toys is not really an issue. They are attracted to the colors. Also, look at the circumstances, he was in a house full of chicks. At home, he is all into his cars, airplanes and trains. Desi is fine and so are all the other little boys in the world that may be attra...
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