Live, Laugh, Pray, Love Mommy

In my last post I wrote about an issue I'm having with my health. Do we know what that issue is yet? No. The results came back regarding my heart and all is well. I have a healthy heart! I am so glad that those results were negative. However, the question still remains. What is going on with my body? I had a follow-up appointment with my primary care doctor last week and they advised that my latest blood test showed that my C-reactive protein levels and my sedimentation rate was really high. Which indicates that there is inflammation in my body. They are not sure what is causing the inflammation so they want me to follow up with the Rheumatologist. This is not the first time that I've heard that my C-reactive protein is high. Years ago, I was under the care of a different primary care doctor. I presented with the same issues and he did a blood test and said my C-reactive protein was high. He suggested I see an infectious disease doctor. Results for those tests (i.e  Lyme diseas...

I am sick and do not know why. I have been dealing with some serious symptoms. I have always dealt with extreme fatigue but in the past 2 years it has become nearly debilitating. I find it hard to do simple things like grocery shopping or doing chores around the house or walking up the steps or putting my clothes on. I experience extreme fatigue with these activities and it usually takes me a day or two to recoup. I have dizziness, and heart palpitations. I have recently experienced chest pain. It wasn't until I started having chest pains during sex when I decided it was time to take a visit to the doctor. My doctor advised that this could be something related to my heart. Since visiting the doctor, I have had blood tests that show I am healthy and I recently did a stress test and 2D Echo that showed my heart was fine. I immediately felt like a fool and quickly reasoned that this was possibly in my head. I have an angiogram scheduled for tomorrow but I don't think anything will...

I have developed an affinity for red wine. I am not quite sure why it has taken this long. I have been a lover of white wine since legal drinking age. However, I experience something different when my lips brush up against the smooth and luscious note of this red libation. I get a more mature and settled feeling. All in the world is clear and concise. I even hold my glass with a sophisticated elegance. It loving coaxes me to cross my legs, lean back, and breathe deeply. I am relaxed. I am still. This is just what I need. I still love my white wine but I am falling for ruby kisses.

One day I was searching the web for something that would provide me with a little extra change in my pocket. I searched make-up, essential oils, selling clothes on line etc. None of these made me feel like I could stick with it (I do not have a selling bone in my body). I have a fear of not being able to sell anything. I remember trying to sell Katydids back in elementary school for a fundraiser. I sold not one box. I was too anxious about actually having to talk to people and convince them to buy something. My mom ended up paying for all of it because we ate majority of the candy. In my adult years I tried to sell home, auto, and life insurance (not my cup of tea), I tried selling a pink drink (I wasn't feeling it), and some other things I can't remember. I needed something that I could be passionate about. I came across a company called Fundanoodle. I had not heard of it before. It caught my attention immediately. The products are absolutely amazing! I was drawn to the I Can...

I am woman I bleed for love I carry the seed for love There is strength in my womb and my soul carries the weight of the future Nothing would stand without the right hand I am the confidence builder for any man See my beauty on the darkest of days I will beam like sunlight to show you the way Never underestimate the intelligence built within me Adam was a perfect man but admitted he needed me Lay on my heart Hear the story it will tell It beats for love and that will never fail I am woman wonderfully made and exceptional I am woman I am powerful

I prefer the color purple rather than the color pink. Purple is the color I like the most because I think it is beautiful. A month ago my son revealed his color preference and I wasn't prepared. It has taken me some time to think about whether I would write about this topic or not as it is pretty sensitive but in the end I feel like not writing about it would bring a constant nagging that would be hard to escape. About a month ago, my oldest son, Desmond asked me to place my hand up against his hand and I did not understand why. He analyzed his hand and mine and proceeded to say, "I wish I had you and Omari's color brown." My heart betrayed me and stopped. All my senses went numb. I couldn't believe what my wonderfully made son just said. I asked him why he felt that way and he said that my brown and his brother's brown was a better brown because it's lighter. I pushed past the ringing in my ear and lovingly asked him if someone at school was saying mean ...

I took a break from writing. It was a break that I didn't know I needed but it kind of happened naturally. A few months ago, my son Desmond lovingly counseled me on how much attention I have been paying to my phone. He was right. My head was down too often enough for him to notice. I can't let that happen again. These moments with my babies are too precious and fragile. I definitely need to HANDLE WITH CARE. So with that being said, I am back but I am going to exercise a little more balance. I love writing but sometimes I get too needy. I turn into the clingy girlfriend with it. I also started getting obsessed with gaining followers and popularity with the media spectators. I wanted people to really enjoy my blog as much as I do (and I wanted to make a little money too. Shoot). I can't worry myself about it. That will take a backseat. My children come first. I am going to be more cautious this time around. I will find a balance. I have been humbled. I truly appreciate par...