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I just discovered something about myself. I am not as confident in myself as I thought I was. I went to dinner with my cousin and a few other family members the other night. We were discussing each other's personality. My beautiful and very talented cousin mentioned that I am one that second guesses myself. She then gives an example. She asked me to set up the gift baskets for her product line (Endless Touch). I take on the task and proceed to ask her how she would like it set up. Although it is nice that I asked, but she was extremely busy. I should have just taken the initiative and dressed those baskets up with confidence. She is 100% right and hearing her say it out loud confirmed my suspicions about myself. It was all clear. When she asked me to set those baskets up, I had an idea of how I would have liked it to look, but I didn't believe that idea would be received well, so I asked for her vision instead.

This is just an example on a smaller scale. Not only do I do this in my personal life, I do this at work as well. I have so many ideas and suggestions, but I hold myself back because I second guess it. I was that kid in class that mumbled the right answer under my breath, but never raised my hand to give the answer. And this is all because I was (and even still) doubting or unsure that my answer was correct. How crappy is that. I need to stop holding myself back. I wonder now do people perceive me as one that cannot think for herself? I'm curious to know. Do I look at myself as that kind of person? I can think for myself. I know that I can, but I do feel like I've dumbed myself down a bit because I don't speak up. I don't give myself enough credit, which, in turn, causes others to doubt my capabilities.

Okay, well now that I have discovered this about myself, it's time to make a change. I'm getting older and I need to be a good example for Desi. I certainly don't want Desi to hold himself back from anything. I want him to be confident in everything he does. So I am on a mission to makeover this part of my life. It's very humbling and I won't feel sorry for myself. I'm just going to keep it moving.
So there you have it. I'll be sure to update you.

Please share your moments of self-discovery. I would love to hear them.

Night Night!

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  1. UnknownApril 30, 2013 at 11:22 PM

    Great subject to me because I can relat! I am actually working on the same problem. It definately does make people view you as a less smarter person than what you really are an lots of times because of not speaking up you're explaining yourself more often because you know what you know, but others don't see it because you don't show it. Most of the time it can be very agrivating to me, but trust change isn't only coming it has come!

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    1. AishaMay 1, 2013 at 2:16 PM

      Yes! Change is coming. It's good to know that I am not the only one riding this boat. Well, we are going to work this out gyrlie!

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    2. AnonymousMay 1, 2013 at 3:46 PM

      I always told you never ever hold back. You are a very beautiful intelligent woman. Love you mom

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    3. AishaMay 8, 2013 at 11:36 PM

      Thank you mommy! I love you dearly!

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